hi. before you read anything else below: this is me writing this about 2 months after everything i wrote under this. im gonna jump straight to the point: all of this was written and done while i still had a major crush on you, by this point for over a year straight. i didn't know how to tell you it to your face. i had wanted to surprise you for christmas with an album i made you as a gift, my "big confession". but over time it just felt wrong to do that to you. it felt wrong to just make a crazy big gesture like this when i didn't even know you that well. the album ended up being more of a public thing over time, and i tried my best to decontextualize it from you, but i didn't know how to do that. i didn't even know if you were involved in a relationship, or if you didn't want to be involved with me, and i think it was rude. i sent you the candy gram to lead to this website out of impulse, in the moment, out of residual feelings i somehow still felt for you, and i think that was rude of me. i just didn't want there to be any ambiguity on how i felt anymore; all i wanted was for you to know how i felt. i hoped that we could just talk about this normally, face to face or in messaging, didn't matter where. i still do. if you want to read what i wrote a few months ago, i still have it below. if you don't, feel free to close out this tab. thank you for reading regardless.

I have spent all of December making this album for you and you alone. I want you to be the first to listen to it in full. I was originally gonna give you some long ass yappathon of a letter detailing everything I've wanted to tell you regarding how I've felt for you for the past year, but I want this album to speak for itself. To let the emotions within it speak to you directly. Thank you for giving it a chance, and thank you for making me feel so much joy in my daydreams every day, Mel. If you ever want to talk outside of school, I'm on Instagram pretty actively. My tag is @allcorrsaosc. Enjoy the music, and enjoy your Christmas. - Carlos

Below, I'll link a Google Doc of all of the lyrics on the album, in case it might be hard to understand: CLICK HERE